after all this time, who'd have thought i'd meet you here?

so, some exciting news: tomorrow i'm going to call about changing my flight.
seriously, if it wasn't for having to go back to canada for school, i'd stay here until my visa finishes in feb, haha. but i guess i'll just have to settle for a few extra weeks. i want to stay in dublin for longer, and i want to travel for longer. fingers crossed it isn't going to cost me loads of euros..i also want to fly out of dublin instead of munich, so hopefully that works out too!

umm..even more exciting..?
I WENT TO THE BRITNEY SPEARS CONCERT LAST NIGHT!!
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i'm not even kidding.
i was at work on friday night (untill five in the morning, woop! ..ugh) and a group of people came in to eat, and asked me if i wanted britney spears tickets. i didn't think they were being serious, so i was like, "uh..no, it's okay" and then i was downstairs on my break eating, and i heard someone scream. i didn't think too much of it, because the joy of working at a place like eddie rockets is that we always get drunk girls screaming over everything.
examples;
Q: a friend walks in the door. what does a drunk girl do?
A: scream

Q: a song they haven't heard in a while plays in the restaurant, what does a drunk girl do?
A: scream

Q: someone at the table tries drunk girls strawberry malt, what does the drunk girl do?
A: scream

as you can see, there could have been many reasons why this girl was screaming at the top of her lungs at 2:00 in the morning. however, when i went upstairs, i discovered that it was not one of these, or any other common reason, it was because she was now the owner of four tickets to see miss britney spears. so i started thinking to myself, "jessica, why didn't you just take the tickets, but oh well, no matter, it's not the end of the world, not even close.." but still, i found myself imagining being at the show, in the same building as the former(?) queen/princess of pop (what do we call her now-a-days? ..besides a mess of course..) but low and behold, as one of my other tables were leaving, the girl turned around and walked back towards me and asked me if i wanted some tickets to see britney spears. i was so confused, and i asked her how everyone had all these tickets to give away (the starting price was €80 that they were being sold for..) and she said it's because they were all in the show. now, i like to think that i won't make the same mistake twice (history proves otherwise..) but i told her "yes please!" and i gratefully accepted the three tickets. the concert was great, even though she only actually sang one song for real. i've never been to a concert where people were lip-syncing (unless alexisonfire, underoath, from first to last, among others were just very good at it..) but i thought it would be a bit more believable.. i seriously could have been listening to her cd..it was crazy. that's not to say it wasn't entertaining though. the whole thing was set up like a circus, and the people in the show were soo amazing!

i hate my job today! it's so weird going into a place that i work and not have everyone say hi as you walk through. and no one talks while they work!! we can go two hours without saying a word to someone else. during my shift today, that really bothered me for some reason. some people i work with aren't like that, but there's only about three..so working with those three is always a treat, but otherwise it's hell. ..haha, sometimes i have to laugh about it though, they're all way too serious about everything. but i really can't wait to go back to sterling shoes <3 it's really my favorite job everr! i love the people, and i love the shoes, and i love the actual job itself! gah, thinking about going back to work is making me not want to change my flight, and just go back and work. this is how my mind's been lately..i'm always changing it. just from the start of the blog to here i'm reconsidering..haha. i think it's the lifestyle here. i'm going to be so thrown off when i go back to my "real life" and i have real responsibilities..i mean, here i have to pay rent, buy my own food, figure everything out myself, but when i go back to vancouver..i'll have school! ughh..well, and rent too still..but i'd rather just be here. (look, i changed my mind again..and this is why i don't write in my blog often..it's such a mess, because i write what i think, as i think it, and clearly my heads a mess right now..

anyway, i'll have to write again in the next few days to offer an update on my return flight. i have saturday and sunday off work this weekend, so depending on when i work on monday, i think i'm going to go explore somewhere :)

peace and love, friends. <3

there's still a little bit of your words i long to hear.

so i promise i've tried to write in my blog more. a few weeks ago i wrote a massive entry, and then my computer over-heated and shut off. i waited about five minutes while i observed the two knacker-girls fighting outside on my street, and then i started again, and wrote an even longer blog..hey? guess what happened..my computer shut off again. so i got super frusturated and just called it a night and went to bed..

so, here's the update, since my last blog:
it's been my birthday! wohoo..19...!? it really doesn't count for anything here, except that now when i go out i feel a bit less like a child, because it's been one year that i've been legal here..that feeling will vanash as soon as i land back in vancouver, so i'll enjoy it while i can.
my birthday was on a saturday, and that night i had to work (until 5:30am) so i went out on friday night. it was so much fun! i met up with a girl from italy that used to hang out with all the spanish people, who had left dublin a while ago. she came back just to get some of her stuff, and we went to a discotech where a friend of her friends was djing. it was amazing!! we got on the guest list, so we didn't have to pay or wait in the massive line, and there were so many people there.
i went to my friends work the next day, and he bought me a cake, because i was feeling a little homesick. and greta bought me a cupcake and left it next to my bed (i ate so much junk food that day, haha)
work was shit, because i had to work with a really rude french girl, and she almost made me cry (i get to work with her again tonight..ugh) but it was okay, because the other guy i was closing with and i played songs on the jukeboxes all night, and the doormen cheered me up :)

yesterday was rent-day, and usually i hate those days, but it was so much fun! i was off, so i ran a few errands, then met up with my friend rory and a girl who works with him in temple bar. she wanted to go for a drink before she started work, so we went to a place called the morgan for drinks. she went off to work, and rory and i went to a pub next door where these three cute old men were playing old jazz songs (and drank some more). another of rory's friends met up with us there, and we hung out for a bit. rory and i went back to my flat after, because rent had to be paid, and we had to talk to the landlord about the deposit, and not finding people to move into the flat, and lowering the rent, ect. the landlord told us that he'd give us back the deposit, and to not find someone else to move in, because three of us wouldn't be here next month, so when we leave he's going to do-up the flat and the remaning guy who lives here would move back in with three other people when it's all done. sooo..amazing news! because i was stressing about finding someone to move in when i leave, and now i don't even have to worry about it-i'll get my deposit back anyway! :) i met up with two other friends later last night at a club i'm now in love with! they play all indie-electro music, and drinks are really cheep, and it's really the most amazing place. i went last tuesday with them too, and the owner got us in for free because they work for him, and last night they put me on the guest list, so i didn't have to pay again :) mmm..tuesdays <3

i really, really don't want to leave dublin! i'm so happy here :) i'm so back and forth though..one day i want to start traveling, the next day i just want to stay here forever. if it wasn't for the fact that everyone's always leaving, it would be nearly impossible to get me to go back to canada. but i feel that when i leave, i'm not going to come back..i don't think i'll be able to. i'll get too sad, because there will be too many memories. i've had such an amazing time here, and i don't regret anything! i'm always going to remember the friends i made, and i'm excited to keep in touch with them, and see them again some day. i'm also happy that i've seen the true side of some people i've met, and i've distanced myself from them. the exciting thing though is that i'm only half-way done my trip..part one is going to end in a few weeks, but part two is going to open my eyes to even more amazing things.